Friday, October 4, 2019

NIGHTTIME WANDERINGS


I will lift up my eyes to the hills, from where does my help come? My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth. Psalm 121: 1-2 (MEV)
It’s 3:30 in the morning. I cannot sleep. The world seems to be closing in on me, and I wonder what awaits me beyond the bend where my eyes cannot reach—a mystery.

Our days are numbered. The amount of sand remaining in the hourglass is known only to our Creator. Would I change the way I spend my days if this were revealed to me? More than likely—yes, I would.
Tears dot the corners of my eyes ready to give way and wash my cheeks. I am in a season of mourning and have been since June 17th when precious loved ones were taken from us—an intentional act of violence. Evil seems to be closing in on all that’s good.

I lament all of it—the loss of life, the sickness that has gripped those I love and the division that plagues our world. I grieve how far we’ve strayed from God’s original design—and my own role in the whole mess. Like Eve in the magnificent Garden of Eden, I too have been disobedient.
The storm rages around me while nature is at rest. Tears now fall in earnest. Helpless and defeated, I lift my eyes to the heavens seeking the presence of my Lord, blind to how the stories He’s written into our lives will unfold. Even as my faith waivers in the uncertainty of it all, I know God is enough . . . for me . . . for you. He has to be.

Father God, please strengthen and uphold us in the seasons of our lives. Guide us into the presence of Your glorious light.
© 2019 Amy A. Verzi

3 comments:

Unknown said...

God is with us through all of our pain. Without Him we couldn’t survive it. He gives us hope. Praying for you in your sadness.

Christy said...

Deep thoughts and well expressed. Your readers can take hold of your feelings and stand with you at times in the lives of each of us.

Christy

Evelyn R. said...

Sorrow has touched each one of us recently. Loved ones have passed on to their own reward. Many of us fight Satan in our daily lives. He has tried to do me in since January several times, but I have continued to pray for God's help and He has been here for me. I am recovering now from a terrible fall several weeks ago. My head was busted terribly and I suffer awful head injury's and am still fighting Satan with the Devine help of God. Please continue to pray for my victory over Satan's evil ways that try to bury me. So, please don't let Satan take your peace that comes through faith in God. God is the answer to all the plagues that Satan inflicks on you. Keep telling that old devil he's not going to win. God is with you ALWAYS! Love in God. Evelyn