A new commandment I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. . . John 13:34 (RSV)
All my life I felt as if I was on the outside looking in. As years passed, I realized love was missing. Love was not expressed in my home. My mother might hug me, but she would just as easily, slug me.
No one went to church. Once I asked why we didn’t go. Dad said they were all hypocrites. Meanwhile he worked all the time, and Mom was sick all the time. They both died young.
When I was seven, my brother was born. If I heard it once, I heard it a hundred times, “You finally got the boy you wanted.” My seven-year-old interpretation: I’m not important or wanted.
After high school and business school, I married and had a beautiful daughter. We moved to Maryland from Pennsylvania. There I met a lovely Christian woman, and we became friends. She encouraged me to join Community Bible Study—and I did, eventually becoming Children’s Director.
One CBS lesson stressed God’s love. Did God love me? I prayed, Dear Lord, I want to feel Your love. In Jesus’ name, I prayed.
Being asked to be on a Servants Team panel at CBS Headquarters, and speak about the program was a fun chore. After it ended, I was surprised when they thanked, hugged and congratulated me. My Teaching Director hugged me with tears, which made me cry. I was overwhelmed with love. I felt loved and accepted—God’s love. Where would this love come from—His Family.
God finally got the girl He wanted.
Dear Lord, I pray those feeling unloved to know Your unsurpassed Love. Amen
© 2018 Lois Gosley
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Well writen!!
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